The price of our innate tendency to resist change is that we will never feel cohesion with nature. We will always be strangers there. Sadly enough, we will carry the arrogance of a teenager within us forever.
Our own mental world will always look bigger and more important than nature. Our mental stagnation will appear to us as development. Nature will be either supernatural or hellish—we won’t not understand it. Charles Darwin recognised that we were not born above animals, but among them. However, things may be worse than that: it looks even animals are better than us. That perhaps explains why animals have been so dominant in the mysteries of indigenous people: these people recognised the human insignificance compared to the animal world. They wished to recapture the animal nature back into themselves.
We’ll spend our lives in a mental “transit hall”
This tiny but far-reaching human inability to reach adult mental maturity also includes the key to the mystery of consciousness, or awareness. Understanding it, however, requires that the largely accepted academic view of man needs be rethought. The mental growth disorder reveals that consciousness is a mechanism, and as is the case with mechanisms in general, consciousness also has a life cycle and a clear role to play. Namely, consciousness is only a mechanism for protecting a child’s growth, it is not a persistent and “sophisticated” state of the adult psyche.
In principle, children at birth could accept their environment without mental support mechanisms, but it is sure this option has certainly been found to be deficient; open-minded children would quickly perish. This must have been the reason for all the mental protective mechanism for children. Children need an instrument that will control sensations and simplify the complex sensory world.
In adulthood, this led to a distortion of reality and loss of deep experiences as the growth control mechanisms simplified, complemented, and removed sensations. The purpose was to make children selfish and cautious. Children were guided by emotions, not by instincts as adults. Childhood was not a preparation for adulthood, and adulthood was not a project to meet the goals set in childhood as we tend to think. Childhood and adulthood were separate stages with completely exclusive experiences.
How self-consciousness emerges | The doubtless world of a child (Mind, the left green box) is created by the presence of parents and their supervision in a child’s mind. Its content is mainly artificial. The child’s mind is conscious but not in the same way as in an adolescence’s mind. An undoubting child with the help of parents made learning possible during the period of adolescence. When it disappears, “consciousness” is revealed. Lack of parental control causes puzzlement. Consciousness, or self-awareness, means an “intermediate state” of growing up. It is revealed due to changes in growth mechanisms when childhood begins to transition into adulthood. A loss of meaningfulness and a subtle feeling of one’s imperfection accompany an adolescence’s sense of independence. The lack of supervision (parental control) leads to a feeling of confusion and an endless search for answers.
It’s all about growing up wrong
However, there was —and still is—an intermediate stage in the mental growth where some functions stopped working. This stage was puberty, which soon came to mark the final stage of our psyche. During puberty young people will learn to doubt and thus lose the ability to take things for granted. They learn still new things but more laboriously as children. They learn to detach themselves from their parents and perceive themselves as “individuals”. This kind of self-awareness is an intermediate state of mind, a kind of limbo, or the edge of Hell. Consciousness is rather a state of pure confusion than clarity, because, as I believe, it was not designed to be permanent.
Teenagers are not entitled to deeper experiences. This is just for their own good. However, they are impatiently waiting for “the green light to change”, but the lights stay insistently red. The phase they are so eagerly waiting for actually never begins. And no one will come and explain why. Tragically, we do not realise this clearly enough, and that is why adulthood will be mistakenly defined by the terms of youth. If the mechanism (altering of consciousness) worked, we would lose our will, ego, cognition, and memory. Instincts would substitute learning. Memory would become mostly useless. We would move from offline to online, so to say. Reality would be streamed, not played back.
If the mental growth disorder is, as it seems to me, genetic in nature, we cannot change it by willpower alone. However, it can be influenced by a proper use of psychedelics. Surprisingly, one of the strongest arguments for my hypothesis seem to be people’s fondness for alcohol and drugs. If we regard this affection just as a weakness or a disease, we miss the point that even we do know a lot of things, we actually do not know how to live.